THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Thursday, September 28, 2006
It's amazing the way things happen. I reminisced about my very first year in RP and in Hope as I jump through the many many blogs that I came across from before. I still have my friendster blog, and its a blessing I didn't delete it yet. The bad hair days (I still have them), the wrong choices, the people who have once etched a memory in my life and gone past, the inspirations that grow dusty with time. Yet, I can't help but realise the bulk of what I remember lay this year. I'm not saying my 1st year was boring or not memorable or what. It's just, I don't know, when I start to see myself as part of the awesome plan, doing something, its clearer in my mind.
The people, the core team, they are a part of my make-up. Jason Nehemiah, Jason, Jovin, Sharon, Martin, Alvin. I can't help but think about them over and over again each day. Leaders to the rest of the flock. We need to grow ourselves well; only then will we be ready to protect and nurture the flock. People who have left, they left for reasons. I'm pretty confident if they come back now, we'll see a different outcome. Annointing comes with a price that hurts our carnal nature in the short term, but ultimately brings us a step closer to God's presence. It's true, each time a testing comes, I cling on just barely. God asks beyond what our human effort can give. And that's the condition for miracles to appear.
God, how do I give all my heart totally to You and not leave any part of it to someone else? You know what's my desire, and You know my situation.
Psychedelic;
5:59 AM
