THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Anniversary video. Leadership Camp. Woohoo, life's getting more hectic.And interesting.
I still remember in the start of the RP holidays, I asked God for things to do. At that time I was very annoyed by the fact that I was wasting away time; now only do I realise, the problem doesn't lie with what I am given, but what I notice to do. And I learnt it the hard way.
I'll have to admit I let my emotions and laziness affect me through the course of the anniversary video, so much so that I drained myself so much. Well at least God saved me at the very end. It was a breakthrough not only in terms of my editing technique, but also the realisation of what was wrong with my character.
And then came the time when I was questioned about what I was doing. No, really, I mean,
what am I doing??? I couldn't find the answer. And I was rebuked. I prayed and prayed and prayed. I wasn't satisfied with what effort I was doing, but at least I did do my best at that point in time.
And then it came. Hard and fast. My shepherd's stricken with chicken pox. I mean, it may have been a really normal thing, to be inflicted by an illness. But the debilitating illness had really caused me to think. Am I living my life for eternity? If that was the way I were to live my life, I knew I'd regret at my deathbed.
I've been blessed with very encouraging brothers and sisters around. Really. Martin, ahahaha, we might not have gotten along well in the early days, perhaps because of my hyper-activity and "ku ku-ness", but at least he's warming up to me. And both Jasons are awesome. The realisation that the door to my destiny lies in God's plan is one thing. The realisation that the key to this door is my heart is another.
It's not enough to do just for honouring your shepherd, or to maintain your CG. A core-team member/CLa should aim to operate like a CL, and a CL should aim to operate like a UL. That's the only way, in my view of things. Because if you don't make sure you go up in God, the devil's going to make sure you go down.
I want to have a bigger heart for people.
I want to be less emotional.
I want to value people more.
I want to cry for every drop of tear I let God shed.
I want to do it. I can do it.
I want to lead by example.
I want to sacrifice, but all I desire is mercy.
I want to become us, a team.
And here's the time to thank God for the wonderful people encountered during these few weeks.
1. Steven, Toby and the rest of those who helped me in the anniversary dance production.
2. Lennon and the rest of the leadership camp committee. We're going to be servants for the rest of the leaders!
3. Liyan! Even before the official shuffle, she's been an awesome friend and leader! Thanks for the advice and encouragement! Look forward to building RP with ya and Tim!
4. The RP team. We are a team. Let's dream a team's dream. Build a team's vision. Finish a team's victory. I've realised one thing; I can't imagine life without RP ministry. I'm a sucker at speech, but ya all feel the heart ba.
5. Jasmine, she's been awesome in imparting her confidence into me, through little gestures!
6. Nel, you don't know how much we're going to miss the Watermelon... NP and TP, ya all better treasure her! wahahaha
And I've got an upcoming DVD project to look forward to! My very first DVD authoring role, but I hope God will bless! Then I can help Tertiary with future DVD authoring projects! Score 1 for Jesus in Media! :)
And now, back to work for Jesus, A purpose in perspective.
Psychedelic;
4:23 PM
