THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Monday, September 04, 2006
...Honestly, I feel like killing, cursing, screaming, mutilating etc, whichever is easiest. My laptop is infected with over 50 trojans, over 50 adware and dozens of other nonsense. I've officially given up on use my laptop for anything online; am using my PC to fix this blog post. And because for the past 3(ish) consecutive days my bro has been on the PC in Maplestory, I was stuck without my beloved blog. Cheers to all who loyally visit my blog. It's alive again!
In an interesting turn of events, I see myself literally revived. I realised how true is it that when we truly desire, even in our lack of desire, God can grant us desire to desire. Deep? =X Ah well, anyway I was about to update another post full of how I lost every single mahjong round yesterday, save the last two rounds, and what I did for the past few days, including the usual rant about how limited my time was when I decided to stop, and hear what God had to say to me...
It's amazing how God teaches us a lesson that we thought we learnt the first time. Then He comes by with the same lesson in another form and we fail miserably. And we realise we've still got a distance to cover. My engines always slow down in the hols, so I really thank God for the holiday crush I have right now. Crammed up to holy business, to keep me from going rusty. I do need that regular kickstart here and there, but at least I'm kept on my toes. After just sitting back and observing today, I mean, I've made some interesting observations. And I thank God for Himself, as well as the people who have not given up on me all these while; sometimes it just comes to a point when I tell God, I'm stuck. And thank God He answers.
Tomorrow's another day full of activities and I pray that I don't forget the essence of life and end up slogging for the temporal. I'm easily satisfied. Let it not be that I'm satisfied now only to regret later. Oh and Jesus loves you, everyone of you.
Good news. I feel more alive now than I did for the past 1 week. Open the eyes of my heart, Lord.
Psychedelic;
9:40 AM
