THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Alina, studying in secondary school but graduating soon... Jia you on your "O" levels! Welcome to the RP family! Woohoo, was really excited for her; it was quite amazing, the feeling of helping someone cross the line. I mean, not just supporting, but SOWing and sharing and believing, the whole experience was uplifting! And now she's SAVED, THE WHOLE HEAVEN REJOICES! The feeling's absolutely indescribable by word's, when you realised you've played a part in saving someone's life for eternity. I WAS JUMPING AROUND LIKE A CRAZY LUNATIC (in my heart!). Jesus! Let me jump for joy as crazily as David. Soften me, mould me, change me totally from the inside out! Let me be a evangelist-enthusiast!
That was the good part. And now's the bad part.
It's amazing how people complain how your words don't match your actions and stomp off leaving you to clear their mess. Okay so I ain't perfect, I make mistakes, sometimes people get mad and ignore me totally when I totally don't know what's going on! Come on, it doesn't help when the people that do this don't do what they say; better still, they expect their promises to be taken lightly. What crap is that? If you think I've done nothing constructive, or I've screwed your life, or I've made you one bit bitter than before and the whole world's going to collapse because of me, tell me in the face. Well that's if you've never done anything wrong. Judge me, but be warned.
You know, I don't mind going to the opposite end of the island, to sleep out in the open to help someone, or to spend all my money for someone
so long as he or she is willing to help his or herself. I especially hate the attitude where you leave the broken pieces on the ground and go away, or you suddenly fade away out of physical existence, resurfacing only to fellowship with other people who haven't gotten on your nerves
with heartfelt concern. Face it, it's going to happen again sooner or later. You're no angel, but I'm no devil either. It's absolutely draining; if you don't think I have the right to talk/call/respond to you because I'm dirt and you're gold, I think my priorities are better off elsewhere. In the mean time, I'm going to shamelessly step all over your life and love you. Relish the sweet revenge, Devil. God is moving.
Romans 12:20 "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
Psychedelic;
11:11 AM
