THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Wahahaha... today's CG was a breakthrough. Love you all RPians! wahahaha. You know how I always freak out, stutter and in general make a big mess of worship? I struggle and struggle with this area of ministry; 17 years of mental conditioning is difficult to defeat. Yet I must really thank God for today, that He kept my jitters in check and really ministered to me. For once when I boo-booed I continued naturally, as if it were a minor disturbance. I let Him flow as uninterrupted as I could, though I did falter here and there. In general, it was a BREAKTHROUGH! Ha ha, compared to last week...
And teaching was an exciting part of CG to be leading. It isn't easy; it's up to the sermon-giver to ensure that the teaching ministers to the peoples' needs. Woohoo, felt honoured as well as a real need to do it well. Not the best but God smiles. :D
You know, the past few days have made me more and more angry. Perhaps it's the lack of rest, but more importantly, little things I was de-sensitized to, especially negative things, I start to take notice. I start to want to change them and when I do, I start to realise my ministry becoming more and more purposeful. Not the purposeful, but the
purposeful purposeful... okay never mind... Wahahaha. (I still am long-winded...)
Had a pool marathon at Singapore Shopping Centre with some of the CG peeps just now. I IMPROVED! I no longer suck as a pool player...! There was this little boo-boo at the start when I was warming up though... but ask me what! The peeps were even disiao-ing me:
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Sharon: Hey, did you all know that in the *old* Hope RP forum, someone asked, "You all want to go play pool?"
Heng Yu: Ya, and guess what Windez replied? He said, "But I don't have any swimming trunks!!!"
Okay so fine, I ain't so bright. But innocence is a virtue! :X
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Had a little quarrel with my mom, tried to reason while in anger, but I realised the futility. Jason reminded me about a sermon point I mentioned in CG and I repented. Thanks Jason! Instant application! Great learning attitude!
Nevertheless it still came on my mind, and I tried to fight it... until I reached home, dreading a curfew... or worse.
So I went in, and after a while my mom came to me to apologise. My stupid ego caused me to apologise softly and we reconciled. After she left, it hit me so hard; God was trying to teach me, through my unbelieving parents that Love transcends differences and ego. Praise God!
Woohoo, tomorrow's website designing... *snore*
Psychedelic;
9:37 AM
