Wednesday, August 30, 2006
There's no more time, so I'm quite fidgety over the shooting and editing. Better go pray hard tonight, then work hard tomorrow. Really thank God for my facilitator, Luke, who vouched for me; otherwise I'd never get the chance to use the school's equipment. I don't want to use Adobe Premiere; I can't get along with it! LOL.
The holidays are pretty much draining me out physically, but very empowering to my personal drive. I enjoy doing what I am doing. Never mind the deadlines are tight; God can work miracles! A breakthrough in my work attitude! Please please please...
And the two Jasons and Heng Yu have come up with an anti-lame charm against me. *1, 2, 3, Oh haha* YOU'VE ABSOLUTELY GOTTA SEE THEM IN ACTION! It's so irritating LOL...
Sigh...
Psychedelic;
10:16 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Had a wonderful mahjong session at Darryl's house today. What can I say; when I win, I win big. Otherwise, I don't win at all! LOL. Had a super long ride home; around 1 hour plus on the bus from Lavender to Jurong Interchange, then a 40min walk all the way back home because I missed the last train and last connecting bus. =/ Ah well, trained my legs!
Creepy trail I tell you. It's like it's all quiet and suddenly a bus comes from behind with the horrendously loud noise it makes. Gave me the creeps. I kept recalling Scripture and singing out loud praise and worship songs to keep myself together LOL. It didn't help my phone kept vibrating each time I received an sms. LOL... And just when I thought it was safer, after reaching Bukit Batok station, I saw this creepy looking black cat with shiny eyes staring directly at me as I walked the "ulu" shortcut home. Sent chills down my spine, and I retorted by singing louder. Never mind I didn't sound good, because there was no one else around. I reached home safe and sound and praised God for that LOL.
Starting the ball rolling is one thing. Maintaining it is another. Let me maintain the momentum! And I will not fall to carelessness.
Psychedelic;
11:45 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Okay that was no link. Never mind. Anyway, as I was saying, I marveled at how Alvin could use tissue paper at the rate of one (or more) borrowed packets of tissue per day just cleaning his mucus. *eek!*
And guess who he borrows them from? Yours truly. I used to think half a packet per day should have been enough to clog his nostrils. Guess those slimy liquids overcome all obstacles slowly and steadily eh?
Anyway was super sick today. I've absolutely got to read up on my bio textbook; I think it's spelt somewhere that not sleeping for 48 hours will cause me to fall ill.
Anyway, as I was saying in the last post, the E26P turned out to be fun, black label and all (I'm so in love with Black Label now! Get me a bottle!), I had work, of which half the earnings went to tithe and offerings and the other a dinner treat for Jerrome. So I was sickly today. Woke up at 8am, but only managed to get out of my bed at 12pm. Managed to get the strength to somehow take a panadol and rush off. Felt dopey all through!
Glad I had infocounter duty today. Don't know how I could jump about praising God with weak knees and a weak head to boot.
And I had bee hoon madness when I reached home. I had earlier requested that some bee hoon be left for me. I returned home to have like the equivalent 5 or more plates of bee hoon left for me. Finished most of it. Mom's finishing the remains of my binging right now.
I wanna be a film-maker!
Psychedelic;
9:59 AM
Friday, August 25, 2006
Ended up going to work in a slightly tipsy state. Psycho-ed myself that I was alert. Managed to fool my body! Wahahaha. After that I joined Jovin(a) and Zul to get a highlight at Bedok. Only Zul streaked his hair. EVERYBODY SAY HELLO TO THE RED ROOSTER! Wahahaha!
Jovin a.k.a Helmet Hair went to Novena for his own highlight, to a much more appealing result. Jerrome and I spent quality shepherding time together. Shared our class videos and everything; we've even planned a portfolio-building schedule for the coming week! Which reminds me, Red Rooster, we're going shopping on Tuesday! I want that denim jacket!
Doodle...
Psychedelic;
6:29 AM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
1. Chupa Chups lollipop
2. Blog
I decided to actually do something this year, and to do something different from normal. Didn't have much money, so I decided to improvise. Wahaha, was thinking of what to get when I remembered how as a child I'd get excited over sweets. So I figured dad'll reminisce either about his, or my childhood if I'd get him a memento from the past. He was touched I took a trip all the way from school. Wahaha, happy birthday again dad!
The blog was something dad requested. And I get the first say! Haha, think I'm going to have to buck up on my layout design skills. Got to build a few blogskins. Design class skills are going to help a lot! Wahahaha.
It's a pity that classes have ended, and I'm still a tad too emotional to do anything productive tonight. Guess this coming holidays are going to be jam-packed with fun stuff though. Going on a self-portrait video-making session, relation-sheep building activities, catching up with old friends and other projects; glad I don't have to slack my holidays away! Woohoo!
Very encouraged by today's CG. I think God really works wonders. He makes me feel proud of Him! :D You rock God! Now mould me so You take pride in me...!
No classes. I hate pre-semestral break emo-ness! And then there's semestral break emo-ness... *faints*
Psychedelic;
8:32 AM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
And because I lost my whole D drive worth of songs, Gospel and secular, I had to rely on my C drive cache, which has a dismal store of Gospel songs (only those which I converted format) In any case, I *no pun intended* fell in love with "I Wanna Be With You" by Xu Jie Er. And don't suan me, I'll confess now, I did do research on the singer. (For the Hope RPians, its an inside joke!)
Dad's birthday today. I'll sing a birthday song on blogger!
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to you...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
Dad rocks! From a kid who wouldn't be here without you. :)
Psychedelic;
11:18 AM
Somehow, somehow semestral breaks always have this emo-effect on me. Withdrawal symptoms of not seeing the same classmates even before I leave class. Today's the last official day, but tomorrow's my last day, because of my elective. I can't stand it! I want classes!
Made the best video that I've done so far, today. We combined team strength; my team did the video and the other team did the stills. Combined it in Final Cut Express. Super emo. Wahahaha. I'm glad I was forced to work with unfamiliar software. It's a pity I couldn't toy around with Final Cut Pro 5. It's super unfair lor; I saw its capabilities from a distance and thought to myself, I'm getting ripped off by cheap software!
And then I worked and worked and played around with the transitions and video effects and achieved half of what I wanted. It's a pity the transitions were difficult to master and I only just learn the speed command. If I had a chance to redo it again, boy is it going to look sleek!
Ah well, time's ticking. Think I'm going to stop wasting time doodering around here. Got a reputation to keep. *yeah, reputation as a over-apologetic, under-appreciated geek* :) I act well.
Psychedelic;
3:15 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Speaking of missions' trips, I'm really excited for the upcoming missions trip to Malacca! Wahahaha, hope I get to go, really want to be impacted and fired up for God's ministry! Didn't really want to go for anything overseas initially because I ain't a very adventurous person as some of you know, but I REALLY REALLY WANT TO BE IMPACTED! Within lies disatisfaction at my current status. RP will grow!
Okay now for more somber stuff.
I decided to have a little checkpoint for myself and how I've been for the past few months, to remind myself, as well as in the hopes it helps others.
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You know, I'm a sucker for worrying. I think 99% of people are like that too, so I'm not too bothered about it. *Problems anyone of us face are common to all* Well anyway here are some musings and incidents I've come to learn something, especially as a new believer.
As a new believer, I've always clung on tightly to my new found life in Christ, because of the change I've experienced. As a result, I constantly worried about backsliding and everything; I started to thank God for every single small thing. I started to thank God for allowing me to miss that little rock that I just nearly tripped over, for a bottle of water I got when I was thirsty. I mean it's perfectly okay to thank God for little things because these things make a difference but I started becoming legalistic. It became like God and I under the coconut tree. Took me a long while to get over it, but at the end, I realised I don't want to be a prick because I ain't perfect. And that's when I started including people into my life. My Care Group and friends. :)
There was once about 6 months ago I realised I've quieten down and become less "crazy" or fired up as before. I've also noted that in other brothers in church and I was worried that, you know, I'm like losing steam. It was only till later did I really it was perfectly normal, I can mellow down and still be passionate for God in a more subtle way. It's not the action but the attitude.
And so on... Far too many to type down but ask me. ;)
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I grew and as the months passed, I became a shepherd and later a care leader, and I faced another common challenge.
Discouragement.
1. People backslide
2. Loneliness, because you have to be one step ahead
3. Caring for and motivating difficult people
4. Nervousness when I start on a role in Care Group
5. Worrying about not hearing from God
6. When everyone's down, you need to be the one up
7. Sacrifice
8. Encouraging people, with a heavy mind
9. Being a pillar
10. Personal personality mix
It starts to get overwhelming at times. I fear, get headaches etc. But guess what? I've learnt to be shameless in asking for help, from my shepherd and other leaders, as well as from God. Remembering my holy fear of losing all that God has given me. The Devil has been a tricky adversary. Always playing on my weaknesses.
But in Christ I am more than a conqueror! I've realised these struggles push me beyond what I can do. It's like RP PBL, my whole ministry. I'm not trying to do free promotion, but I really think it's made all the difference. The key I found out is to really take ownership of what you do. When you take ownership of your life, your ministry, your learning, your leading, you'll double the thought process, triple the effort and quadruple it all. I've realised that as I began to see RP 2 as my Care Group, and the people in RP ministry as my brothers and sisters, beyond just a name.
Do I look more serious? Do I look more scary? Do I sound more harsh? Ha ha, I can't afford wasting any more time than I am already. In a flash, Year 2 Sem 1's over. I'm seriously shocked at the rate time passes. Things are going to change, bigger shocks are coming by, life is speeding up. Direction? Vision? Goal? Ministry?
The greatest consolation I have, is that my standard of living has improved; I'm no longer living a life of routine and instant gratification. Neither am I in this alone, because when I truly open my eyes to observe, it could be a day just reading up on leaders' blogs, I know that I'm not alone...
To sum what I've learnt:
Sensitive beyond surface. Proactive.
Don't expect to receive, but give. Then you'll give in joy.
Love if you want to feel love. You only receive when you give.
You aren't the centre of the universe. God is.
Dream, talk, but please have action. Otherwise it's just gas.
Psychedelic;
7:56 AM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Was walking in hushed silence towards the MRT station. Feeling kind of lonely. You know, like everyone's in a small group here and there. It was there and then I realised how the rest felt. You know, like not being a part of the group. I've long decided to change that atmosphere, but today I've gotten only more convicted about it. Was really thinking long and hard, trying to find reasons to stop feeling that way. I realised I couldn't. We can talk, joke about love, but the only way for things to change is to initiate. Went straight home and started on my personal worship and QT straight after a fast dinner. God touched my heart and healed it.
Then, as if not enough, my mom came over to my room and we started talking. She began to relate to me her concerns for our family's well-being. She shared with me the life she once had, the life she is living now and the regrets. Then, the worst thing happen, she started tearing. I grabbed on to her hand as we talked. We talked about my maternal (adoptive) grandfather, how her anger changed into pity. Mom's a real nice person; I owe my heart to her. The whole incident caused me to feel more convicted about sharing to her the love of God. At that point, she started relating to me how her friend had brought her to church faithfully for 8 months, but gave up, breaking off the friendship (I raised my eyebrows) just when she was about to accept Christ as her Lord and Saviour. I found it quite a waste... Jesus could have changed her life totally, like 40 years ago... No matter, it'll be my turn now. Oh, and I also guessed correctly why she didn't receive Christ earlier; though her friend shared to her about Jesus, God and brought her to service faithfully, she never did asked her if she wanted to respond to God's call... Such a pity. The whole conversation encouraged me lots and lots though!
Mom, no worries, you didn't make a mistake bringing us up; we appreciate the chance to live and let live. :)
Sam MSNed me today. Kind of cool talking to him, learning from him. Sorry, I never was a initiator; it's difficult but I will do it! Inspired by his timely message to do a Bible study starting from Matthew (was reading that). Matthew 1 took me some research time, but was useful as I've learnt far more than I ever knew. I was long inspired by the way how each verse carries a hidden message, but I never am able to get it. Thank God for you Sam!
And so I started on my Bible study, complete with interruptions through MSN! :X
Psychedelic;
10:27 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
1. For the new mouse Jerrome gave me. Mine was spoilt and he offered his, thanks!
2. For my friend who asked me if I was interested in becoming a pastor, priest etc. Perhaps not priest in name ba, because I'm already a priest in God's kingdom. I did consider being a pastor though, but I'm not too decided, I need to grow more! :x
3. For the wonderful impromptu Spirit-led worship we had there at Bishan. Alvin, Jerrome, Heng Yu, Sharon and the two Jasons. We OWNED THE PLACE! Gave our hearts and voices to God and praised and worshipped Him in the middle of no-where. May the people who come by past be touched through the praise and worship!
4. For my wonderful class, which I took 10 weeks to come to appreciate! Now we're splitting! Noooo!
5. For all my friends, family in my life.
6. For God Himself who grant me my life, my sustenance and my purpose.
7. For a blog, a freedom of speech and living in a relatively safe place.
8. For a local church to commit to, to attain spiritual covering in the midst of being in the world.
9. For an opportunity to be a salt and light. (I'm working on it!)
10. For the foundation He has set in my heart and a burden to set it in other hearts!
Woohoo, I'm so excited!
Psychedelic;
8:08 AM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Ecclesiastes 2:17-26 spoke to me a lot about my ministry; is it about pure human work, or am I flowing with the Spirit as a partnership. Each time I think of Ecc 2:17 I am reminded that no matter what I accomplish, it will not amount to anything if it is not done with "eternity" in mind. Riches? I can't take that to the grave, or heaven. Neither can I take fame, assets etc up. Only my spirit goes up. Not even my body. And my character will be put through the flame of truth. In partnership with God to do God's work.
You know, it's scary. How people backslide/switch church etc. I noticed a trend.
Step 1. Feel neglected and unwanted by the majority. Feel unwanted, unloved, not needed.
Step 2. Talk to shepherd about it, discuss and hope for a good resolution.
Step 3. Nothing happens on the majority side. Draw away and find a more suitable church.
Sounds fair? Think again. I'll simplify.
Step 1. Feel neglected.
Step 2. Talk about it.
Step 3. Nothing is done by the backslider. What is done is ignored. No sense of remembering blessings. Backslide.
See the difference when I simplify? It's a two-way thing. Talk is cheap. I don't think anything else needs to be said.
Sometimes I wonder if our soft approach makes people weak. Dare to say "think big"? Dare to do big. Same two people with same situations come out with different results. Difference is character. Everything else can be faked. But strength of character cannot be counterfeited. If there's anything we should hunger for, hunger for what builds character.
Psychedelic;
10:33 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
That was the good part. And now's the bad part.
It's amazing how people complain how your words don't match your actions and stomp off leaving you to clear their mess. Okay so I ain't perfect, I make mistakes, sometimes people get mad and ignore me totally when I totally don't know what's going on! Come on, it doesn't help when the people that do this don't do what they say; better still, they expect their promises to be taken lightly. What crap is that? If you think I've done nothing constructive, or I've screwed your life, or I've made you one bit bitter than before and the whole world's going to collapse because of me, tell me in the face. Well that's if you've never done anything wrong. Judge me, but be warned.
You know, I don't mind going to the opposite end of the island, to sleep out in the open to help someone, or to spend all my money for someone so long as he or she is willing to help his or herself. I especially hate the attitude where you leave the broken pieces on the ground and go away, or you suddenly fade away out of physical existence, resurfacing only to fellowship with other people who haven't gotten on your nerves with heartfelt concern. Face it, it's going to happen again sooner or later. You're no angel, but I'm no devil either. It's absolutely draining; if you don't think I have the right to talk/call/respond to you because I'm dirt and you're gold, I think my priorities are better off elsewhere. In the mean time, I'm going to shamelessly step all over your life and love you. Relish the sweet revenge, Devil. God is moving.
Romans 12:20 "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
Psychedelic;
11:11 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Had a little chat with Pearline over MSN just now. Looking forward to her return in December. Hope RP's very own GIANT CARE BEAR! Wahahahahaha... Update your blog more lehz!
Anyway back to class. The situation's looking dire. It's 2.30pm, only one team has presented and the rest of the teams are slogging at the presentation. I'm kind of like laying around, since the team has no use for me as of now. LOL. BUT HEY, I DID DO WORK OKAY! x_x
I was reading Joshua 18 and 19 with Jerrome yesterday and we were staring blankly at the allotment of the 12 Tribes. So we decided to Google up the Old Testament Map of Israel. What we found was cool; only perhaps the map was too detailed (when you read it you'll get what I mean) so much so that we couldn't find what we wanted to. But it's still cool; when you do Quiet Time with others, in my opinion you tend to get more interested in what you are trying to learn from reading the Bible!
Psychedelic;
11:32 PM
Insomnia. I know I need to recharge my batteries but. Aiya. How to say.
RP Ministry:
Timothy, Sharon, Jovin, Windez, Jason (drummer), Jason (e. guitarist), Jerrome, Wei Jian, Avril, Yan Xiang, Heng Yu, Elaine, Ming Li, Krystal, Martin, Dao, Jeremy.
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The names keep on flowing through my head. The lives that's changed. And I wonder if I'm giving enough thanks. If so, I should see fruits naturally coming in right? I'm so scared, God. Afraid of every single small thing that steals a bit of us as it comes by. But I want to grow RP, by Your Grace? Take my hand? Can...?
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I guess everyone's gone through a period of spiritual dryness before, but this is the opposite. It's an over-intense flooding of burden and desire. I can't say I stand in awe as much as I am paralysed by awe. Well then, blow me away, my dear God.
I don't want to sleep in peace so much as I want to sleep in victory.
Psychedelic;
10:33 AM
Psychedelic;
9:18 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
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I was just a New Believer that time...
(During one of the games)
Pearline: Okay, what do you all want to be. What occupation?
Sharon: I want to be a tai-tai, a house-wife.
Timothy: I want to be a (Director? I forgot).
Windez: ...
Pearline: So what do you want to be, Windez?
Windez: I wanna be a Man of God!
(Silence ensued)
Everyone: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! That's not an occupation!
Windez: Oh... Hmm, but I want to...
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The flashback ended there. I REALISED SOMETHING. I AM LIVING THIS OCCUPATION AS I SPEAK! Not many people are as lucky to have their dream occupation being realised so young in age. A knot came about in my stomach. I'm so foolish to not make use of what I have been blessed with...
...And then I thought about that faltering brother... I laboured...
Dear brothers and sister... don't you know my heart bleeds for your revival?
And I wrote this as an example. This is what burden means. Go pray about it.
God I'm ready to collapse in Your arms.
Psychedelic;
11:18 AM
And teaching was an exciting part of CG to be leading. It isn't easy; it's up to the sermon-giver to ensure that the teaching ministers to the peoples' needs. Woohoo, felt honoured as well as a real need to do it well. Not the best but God smiles. :D
You know, the past few days have made me more and more angry. Perhaps it's the lack of rest, but more importantly, little things I was de-sensitized to, especially negative things, I start to take notice. I start to want to change them and when I do, I start to realise my ministry becoming more and more purposeful. Not the purposeful, but the purposeful purposeful... okay never mind... Wahahaha. (I still am long-winded...)
Had a pool marathon at Singapore Shopping Centre with some of the CG peeps just now. I IMPROVED! I no longer suck as a pool player...! There was this little boo-boo at the start when I was warming up though... but ask me what! The peeps were even disiao-ing me:
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Sharon: Hey, did you all know that in the *old* Hope RP forum, someone asked, "You all want to go play pool?"
Heng Yu: Ya, and guess what Windez replied? He said, "But I don't have any swimming trunks!!!"
Okay so fine, I ain't so bright. But innocence is a virtue! :X
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Had a little quarrel with my mom, tried to reason while in anger, but I realised the futility. Jason reminded me about a sermon point I mentioned in CG and I repented. Thanks Jason! Instant application! Great learning attitude!
Nevertheless it still came on my mind, and I tried to fight it... until I reached home, dreading a curfew... or worse.
So I went in, and after a while my mom came to me to apologise. My stupid ego caused me to apologise softly and we reconciled. After she left, it hit me so hard; God was trying to teach me, through my unbelieving parents that Love transcends differences and ego. Praise God!
Woohoo, tomorrow's website designing... *snore*
Psychedelic;
9:37 AM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Something I wanted to, but didn't do a long time ago. As taken from Ps Jeff's blog:
How God builds you while you are building your ministry
by Rick Warren
Did you know that God uses a very predictable process to build your character? I call this process the "Six Phases of Faith." If you don’t understand this process, you’ll get discouraged when problems arise. You’ll wonder, "Why is this happening to me?" But if you understand and cooperate with what God is doing in your ministry, your faith - like a muscle that is stretched - will develop great strength.
Phase 1: A dream
God gives you a dream – an idea, goal, or ambition. Every great accomplishment first begins as a God-given dream in someone’s mind. "God is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or even dream of - infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, or hopes.” (Eph. 3:20 LB)
Phase 2: A decision
A dream is worthless until you decide to do something about it. For every 10 dreamers, there’s only one decision-maker. This is the moment of truth where you decide to invest your time, money, energy, and reputation and to let go of security. If you want to walk on water - you must get out of the boat! "You must believe and not doubt … a double-minded man is unstable in all he does.” (James 1:6, 8 GN)
Phase 3: A delay
There is always a time lapse before your dream becomes reality. God uses this waiting period to teach us to trust him. Remember, a delay is not a denial. Maturity is understanding the difference between "no” and "not yet.” God says, “These things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!” (Hab. 2:3 LB)
Phase 4: A difficulty
Now the problems start popping up. The two most common types: critics and circumstances. Don’t worry. It’s all a part of God’s plan. “At the present you may be temporarily harassed by all kinds of trials. This is no accident – it happens to prove your faith, which is infinitely more valuable than gold.” (1 Peter 1:6-7 Ph)
Phase 5: A dead end!
Your situation will deteriorate from difficult to impossible. You are backed into a corner, you reach the end of your rope; it looks hopeless. Congratulations! You are on the edge of a miracle. Trust God. “At that time we were completely overwhelmed … in fact we told ourselves that this was the end. Yet we now believe we had this sense of impending disaster so that we might learn to trust, not in ourselves but in God who can raise the dead.” (2 Cor. 1:8-9 Ph)
Phase 6: A deliverance
God provides a supernatural answer. Miraculously, things fall into place! God loves to turn crucifixions into resurrections so you can see his greatness. “I expect the Lord to deliver me once again so I will see his goodness to me ….” (Ps. 27:13)
A DELIVERANCE! A DELIVERANCE COME FAST!
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Psychedelic;
10:40 AM
Classes are always a stressful thing for me, as I think is natural for everyone else, with the difference being this; as the lesson goes on and more work is done/assign, I start to get relaxed. In fact I feel less stress being in the middle of work. I feel significant.
Likewise, sitting there in the middle of the crowd in NDP just screaming my lungs out for my country; that ain't working; I left feeling less significant, a part of the crowd. That's why, I guess, over the years I've never taken to watching the NDP.
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And then there was a 3 hour hiatus 'cos I got other stuff to do
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And then, "OUCH!" You know, when the words of your enemies fail to hurt you, the devil usually takes advantage of your friends to cut you deep in. And it happens to be someone whom you thought you could run the race through all the way...
Thanks, your situation has made me want to work doubly hard.
Psychedelic;
5:59 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
Met Sharon up for our last official shepherding... *sighs*... Change of shepherd-times have always been heart-breaking for me. It's nothing serious, just that I value all my shepherds greatly; they are God's anointed. Jia you Sharon; you'll get a better sheep! :D
...And guess who I'm *stuck* with? Wahahaha, Timothy Alvin, AGAIN! Wahahahaha welcome back shepherd! My 1st shepherd... I've gone full-circle!
Tim--> Pearline--> Nel--> Sharon--> Tim!
Worship practice was cool...! Anticipate something cool on Wednesday! Confidence not in myself, but in God's ministering Spirit!
And I've got myself A NEW BAG, KUDOS TO SHARON! WAHAHAHA! Excited! Going to use it 1st time on Saturday *choose auspicious date* :X
It's quite late now. I've gotta go...
Psychedelic;
10:08 AM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
John: Whatever happened to "common" sense?
Jack: They don't give birth to them nowadays.
Common senseless is in vogue.
Common senseless is in vogue.
Common senseless is in vogue!
Psychedelic;
11:06 AM
Okay so I don't look too good in that picture. Who cares anyway? LOL. I posed that way for fun. Anyway, point being;
When we look at our past pictures, do we see anything changed? This picture was taken on the 6/6/06 so yeah, it's a couple of months back. And I'm not talking about physical change. The sparkle in our eyes, the confidence (in God) in our gait, the liveliness we had; a stark contrast to the world's "emo-ness". Where is it all now? Just last Saturday, I became painfully aware that though, yes, RP's still right in front, initiating to come down to the from row, we aren't jumping as much as before. I don't mean the physical act of jumping, but every seems more, how do you call it... lethargic? And that was when I told myself, I'm not going to stop jumping. I'll be the minority, because it's worth it. I pray that I not only jump for joy in service, but I make a difference on field. I can do it de. Pray for me and RP kays? *ESPECIALLY THE RP KIAS AH!*
P.S. Stop staring at my face, I know it looks retarded.
P.P.S. I said stop it.
P.P.P.S Okay go ahead staring, I give up.
Do YOU #1 want to BE a world changer? Or do #2 you want to SEE world changers? If your going to choose #1, you've made the right choice, welcome to the club of "Somebody". If you've chosen #2, it's just not good enough y'know, you're still in the sea of "everybody".
Psychedelic;
10:53 AM
Haven't been updating for the past few days, because I was caught up to the neck with Alvin's company video. Turns out they need to polish a video clip to be put up on the Net, so I volunteered. I didn't realise the mass of issues I had to gripe with...;
1. Editing software to use.
2. DVD ripping software, because I DON'T rip DVDs. (the company gave me a DVD to RIP... omigosh)
3. Time management
4. How to do it (which was solved when I had that "eureka thought" that it was up to me. Quite common sensical, but you know, the kids these days... :P (self-suan)
5. That my laptop CANNOT support it
6. HOW to use the software (bummers, I came in with zero knowledge of Adobe Premiere, and came out never wanting to use Adobe Premiere anymore. But I did get to understand how to use it. Heck, I'd even share how, if you had a way to get me to.
7. Backup plans (I can't stress the importance of this. Nevertheless, all my backup plans failed. What a wise-guy Windez is eh?)
So yeah, I took late nights and early mornings just to do the video. I'd committed roughly 20 hours into the video over a span of 3 days (12 hours today), and guess what? It failed. I was pretty surprised how a 500Mb video can inflate into a 3.2Gb video at 70% completion. Never mind the fact that Premiere crashed BEYOND a 100 times (and I'm not exaggerating) and I devoted roughly 5 hours to finding and ripping the DVD clip, amount of time wasted was just... despicable. Now I feel like a worse off sinner... =/ :x
Well, it wasn't too bad, at least I've learnt something...
Wait A MINUTE! Could it be... video editing the key to holy discontentment?... No wait, no way right?! God only you know the answer!
Patience.
Anyway,
You know, when you counsel people, if you hear yourself clearly enough, you'll see that often more than not, what you say also applies to yourself. It's like God's trying to teach us something through us sharing something. And often more than not, after the sharing, I feel 1) more convicted, 2) more thankful for what I have, 3) more patient. Why more patient? Ask your shepherd. :P
Wahahahahaha.................... There's school tomorrow, HISTORY OF THE ARTS! Sounds really boring, but really, it's cool. Going to go on a do-well streak. Do well for that, then what I've planned after school all the way to the end of the race.
Oh yeah and Jason (drummer) and Jerrome, congratulations on having a new shepherd. :)
I'm so buay hiao bai. LOL!
The Covenanted One, remember your covenant!
Psychedelic;
10:32 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
So I went off early. Tell me if my early departure made a difference. Recently have been running on a short fuse. I never wanted all those boo-boos and failures, but I guess it's just a part of being human. Fallible. Its that realisation that's kept me sane for the week. But that's not to say things can't improve. And don't say I don't do anything. To put it crudely, I bloody well flung my comments in, but they weren't accepted.
Okay, so that's a little bit of frustration over the week that's been released. Over the course of the week, I kind of find these few things lacking whenever I want to do something:
1. Enough Information - I can't read peoples' minds and therefore cannot "know" without explanation and effective communication.
2. Practise/Time/Wadchamaycallit - Neither am I an overnight wonder performer. I need practice! I'm a theory-biased guy with a severe handicap in practical stuff. Can I do things the way I do best and not the way others do best?
Thank you very much for hearing me rant, but I really really needed to get these things through.
Psychedelic;
9:55 AM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Since Yeow Chong couldn't join us at Food Junction, I skipped my meal there just to wait for him. Couldn't let the poor buddy eat alone. So instead of sub-human food, I ate trash food. Zhi Wei showed us some videos, none of which I cared to watch, ha ha. No la, I was busy buying the food and then eating it. :x
Was feeling regretful at the whole celebration; just a simple meal... when Zhi Wei finally confessed to the deed; he flashed his IC; and left the rest of us dumbstruck. HIS BIRTHDAY IS IN APRIL! ARGH HOW COULD I BE FOOLED??!! Ha ha. Wanted to spank him nice and proper for adding a wrong date in my birthday calendar. GRRRR! Ha ha. But anyway, I would have done the same, if I knew it wasn't his birthday; we really needed the get-together. It's been so long time since we hung around...
After that Yong Ren and I walked home; the rest stayed far from us. We shared about our lives and some stuff which we knew we'd do differently if given the opportunity. Nevertheless, I shared the importance of being forward-looking rather than backward-looking; we all need to build a future, not starve on the past. Was encouraged by his open-ness. I offered helped. Really hope to see Jesus blow his mind away with what He can do in his life. My dear friend, you don't know how much Jesus can change you... ha ha, nevertheless I'm anticipating. :D
AND YES! I'VE FOUND A REPLACEMENT TO MY LOST EAR PIECE! A HEADSET COMPLETE WITH MICROPHONE AND EAR MUFFS! WAHAHAHA...!
I'm so excited! Woohoo... had a half an hour chat with Yan Xiang just now. He's a great bro; going to miss him when he heads into army in September (did I mention that before?). Will pray for him too. Take time to pray and ask. Hope RP will pick up and fly! Jesus be our wings!
P.S. And Jeremy and Cecil will be out this saturday for service! Woohoo! How's the haircut dudes! You should have gone on the Hair for Charity thingy; you'd get a free haircut! HA HA!
Psychedelic;
9:56 AM