THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
There's that silent, creeping feeling coming all over me. Something's coming.Had an awesome time at RP 1 & 3's CG just now... but once again, I can't help but feel anger and weakness... at my inability to provide an awesome one for RP 2 & 4. It's not about encouraging me anymore... the root issue...! I'm quite amazed. Alvin did something at CG which I've tried weeks ago at my own; the results were polar. I don't know why? I guess there were too many chances we let slip here and there, and that amounted to something massive. Well, learning point.
I've always had this feeling all along; it seems like the stakes and the pace get higher and higher more than I can handle each time. It's fine... it's just that I often end up doing something I felt I could have done so much better with a little more training/advice? I'm hanging on a loose end here, going through some massive paradigm upheavals. How do you change an introvert into an extrovert? How do you change a pacifist into a biblical rebel? How do you ignite a traditionally fire-resistant soul? Perhaps I ain't sensitive enough, but I'm still waiting for an answer from God.
But I give thanks to God for giving me wonderful friends all around. I'm still pretty amazed at my guitar-playing progress, considering my natural inaptitude for the sonic arts. I guess He really makes all the difference. And the new canteen's been a real boon; at least we don't have to eat subhuman rations anymore; except when we choose to. :X I've even heard rumours of Subway and Pizza Hut opening in a month's time or so!
You know that little dilemma, whether to call the hurting sheep and calm his nerves temporarily, or give him the bitter pill fearing also for the worst? It doesn't help the world thinks you aren't doing enough. Come on!
Psychedelic;
9:55 AM
CRAPPY
The Poem
A poem is a feeling,
A heartfelt longing,
What makes it good,
Depends on your mood.
A tingling in your heart,
A quick flash of a dart.
A fragment of your life,
The rhythms of YOUR jive.
So ask not from without,
But seek to show out loud,
For this is truly you,
Done beautifully too.
