THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
You know what's the reason why we always feel lethargic and weak and low on faith? Because we do things for the sake of doing, we give our very heart and soul into what we do. And as if that is not enough, discouragement comes and saps our energy. But why then, do others not feel as bad as us? Several simple reasons:
1. We take ourselves important far too much.
2. We don't refresh ourselves enough.
It's far too easy getting moody and angry and helpless when we are put down or when we fail at something. I mean, what else can we do when everything
seems bad? What we think and feel becomes what is real. Pity. If Jesus did, we'd be worse off than we are now. I can cite so many different examples; getting wrongly accused of things I didn't do, doing all I can in my current state but yet being blamed as if I've done nothing at all, getting bullshit and being ignored for concerned shown.
But all these are common to everyone else! What right then do I have if others don't? Don't compare troubles; you'll just end up feeling more troubled. Compare blessings! The fight that I didn't get into yesterday, thanks to restraint brought by the Holy Spirit, the face I didn't slap even though I was boiling inside; all these I've never managed before I manage now by the grace of God. What about you? Always relate it to yourself.
It's easy to just go home and chat and in general pass life. It's hard making the effort to pray to Him who we do not see, or read His Word. It's easy to hide all of our private lives.
But it will all show. It doesn't take a genius; all it takes is a simple word from God to unveil pretension and a carefully crafted facade. I hate the attitude," Don't like it? Then don't do it!", more so because I myself struggle with it. I mean come on, don't blame others, don't grieve others for what you don't want to do. I can't imagine the pain God feels from all of us, if I can be grieved so easily by one similar to myself. Pray, pray, pray! I'm very much more imperfect and fragmented than others, but God uses the foolish to shame the wise. I'm trying to change, shouldn't you too?
If you see problems; seek to change them, not complain.Judge and be judged, improve and be improved.
Psychedelic;
1:21 AM
