THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
My finger feels weird. It always does after some intensive practice on the guitar. I think I'm a sadist or something, because the feeling's weirdly good. Like I've accomplished something. Awesome. Though I didn't manage to play much more than some ramblings and joyful noise (as Pastor Jeff aptly puts it), I believe I'll be able to get my skills up in time for CG. That leaves me with 2 weeks, from scratch.
Skipped class today for a few more winks. Woke up wondering if I had died or something. Felt totally drained and dead flat out. Guess I talked too long with Thomas the previous night. He came by my house to borrow something. Haven't seen him in ages, as with the rest of the RP team. It still is funny how we met, because he's from NYP. Really hope to see him come back to church.
Alvin impersonated Nel to give me some advice. Honestly speaking, I knew it was him because I didn't close the previous chat conversation when
he was still him and not her (LOL!). I guess though, hearing it as if its from Nel has its effects. It sounded so "Nel" though, but I agree with what he said.
Energy management.
It's pretty cool, when I woke up somewhere around 11.30am, I had this vivid recollection of my dream in which I woke up 20kg heavier, which is like my optimum weight. Even though, it was really a dream, and I am still fly-weight as of typing this, it did do some good to my confidence. o_O
A pretty cool (by that I mean insightful, just my slang) turn of events inspired me regard some matters. It's abit sensitive so I shan't type it out here. I realised how a simple innocent looking decision we make can inevitably change the whole course of our lives.
Just like that innocent looking apple that Eve bit. Yet we were not left without warning. The phrase guarding your heart has never been more real in my life. In subtle ways Satan comes to test the perimeters of our defense till he finds a weakness.
Job is a huge example.
A word of encouragement to all:
Galatians 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
I still firmly believe I will grow up and out of the characteristics which bind me to my situation right now. ;)
Psychedelic;
9:35 AM
