THE CRAPPER SPEAKS
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Honestly when I went down to heed the altar call, it wasn't in power, it was in fear and trembling. Serving God, I learnt through the times, is more than just putting in effort; it's a true burden for people, its a real-life business that's geared for eternity and not the transient allure of instant-gratification. Pastor Ben's sermon did much to enlighten me on my role in the church; similarly for every single Christian, it's no light joke. Each part you play can mean the difference between portraying Jesus in your life and saving others, or turning others from the faith. Well, I guess that's why I'm pretty much more uptight and serious :X. Hey, gimme a break will ya!
I noticed I lost much of my exuberance. Well, it works both ways; one, I become more serious, but on the other hand, hmmm... Well yeah, we'll keep it at that. Which brings to mind the word "balance". Balance is in so many ways lacking in our lives; we either slack too much, or burn ourselves out (though it's rarely the second). I've got to kick-start that hanging around with other people; observe and learn how to interact! I've always been an alien at interaction, I admit, but that's one thing which God has changed verily, in my life. B-A-L-A-N-C-E. I can if I believe in it!
MY APOLOGIES LESTER! Our sleepover at my house was, by my fault, badly-planned. I suck at hosting guests. A point to note and improve on. Seems like I didn't prepare anything interesting to do. No worries, it's only going to get better. You know, the old joke about guys' conversations being "Chop, chop!" I kind of believe it right now, even though I'm supposedly super noisy and crappy.
If there's something I learnt, its that no one is hopeless. Two very amazing people I've met are:
1) My sheep, Heng Yu. This quiet guy's a powerhouse for miracles. He used to be the epitome of silence. Get it? Silence. I never knew what was going on in his mind. Well, honestly, I still can't read minds, but at least he's speaking up and stuff. And I believe he'll only get better. It's been a few months le, sheep. See your improvements; appreciate them! Now jia you, we'll do it together, as a team!
2) Jeremy Wee, our super loyal faithful visitor who converted this year. He may not have known it, but he's taught me a thing or two today! It's not just how real and factual your sharing can be; it's how much
relevance to your life. It's the power of life-change! Appreciate your effort in talking to me! Let's grow together!
Argh, guess my post got lost in translation, so I have to like retype some stuff. My brain's kind of having some cramps, so I can't recall and stuff. X_X I'll try though.
Each step
towards God we take brings us to a crossroads; to take the leap of faith or not to. Depending on your choice, it can either make each passing leap of faith an empowering moment, or it can totally destroy our desire to do so, if we keep on procrastinating our efforts. Where are you now? Self-reflection and not self-criticism. Criticism is negatively repudiating, yet reflection and evaluation looks at building up.
Body(of Christ)-
building. Ask yourself.
Quote from Nel(whines): I don't know how to end high!Quote from Alvin(excited): Never mind, I do!Quote from the rest: Uhh, Alvin, you don't have to try so hard...*rolls eyes*
Psychedelic;
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